Show UP

Week one.

For the first time, I cried.

I sat in my car and cried after a gym class. Not of sadness, but because I was back in a place that I truly know helped saved my life. I Love Orange Theory Fitness!

I’m currently on week two of being back in the gym.

In 2015, I heard about this workout where you can burn up to 1,000 calories a workout! At the time, it sounded terrifying, why would I want to do that, it sounds like a lot of work! In July of 2015, that gym made its way to Richmond.

I remember walking up to the newly finished gym and meeting Brooks. I told him how AFRAID I was to be a part of this program. He stopped me right there and told me I would be fine! He handed me an XL T-shirt, and in my mind, I wanted to crawl into a ball and die. THERE WAS NO WAY A XL WOULD FIT. I kept in my mind if I SHOW UP and PUT FORTH effort, one day it would and realized no NOT tomorrow but one day.

May 2018

I can talk about OTF all day, but this is for my return!

On May 8th! Eight Weeks Post Skin Removal Surgery! I was back in my HAPPY PLACE! Kicking off the week with Coach John

Day 1 Monday: Coach John

Strength Day.. filled wit HILLS! My LEAST Favorite.

Coach John was the coach that had me waking up at 5am Thursday mornings with a playlist filled with throwback hip hop and rock!  He keeps us pumped throughout the workout.

I was nervous to get back but listened to my body as I slowly used eight pounds weights. My feelings were hurt but taking it easy is priority. With four more days of workouts left, it felt good to slowly move back into things, and gage my strength based on my newly skin “less” arms.

Day 2 Tuesday: Coach Hedi

ESP Endurance, Strength and Power! MY FAVORITE!

In the beginning of my Journey every Monday Coach Hedi would make me cry! No SHE WAS NOT MEAN! She ALWAYS pointed out my accomplishments. She made me realize take it one class at a time, and to always check in with myself. “If you can say your address all the way to the zip code, YOU ARE NOT IN PUSH PACE.” – Coach Hedi. She PUSHED us on the treadmill for three different blocks.

Day 3 Wednesday: Coach Hannah

Endurance Day: And the NEW GYM!!! HEY OTF GLENSIDE

Coach Hannah is my girl! I love being pushed and she will call me out if she KNOWS I’m slacking.

Endurance: Progressive Push Pace! It’s Work, but I had one goal in mind on Day 3, DO NOT STOP RUNNING. I ran for a full 24 minutes in class reaching over two miles (WORTH EVERY STRIDE)!

Day 4 Thursday: Coach Mike

ESP Endurance, Strength & Power: WE GOT CRUNK. Coach Mike doesn’t MIND dancing. His bubbly personality and making gym time a good time while making sure you hit that orange is his priority! This day was all about ATL and Down-south CRUNK music. He had us ALL OVER THE GYM! It was an awesome loud and hype class.

Day 5 Friday: Coach Hannah

Power Day: “OUR HAPPY HOUR BEFORE HAPPY HOUR”-Coach Hannah

The week ended with another strong Power workout to send the class into the weekend. I took myself up a notch and picked up a 15-pound weight to see where my strength was and I felt good about it! All about tiny gains!

Three Things I Learned: Returning to the gym after Skin Removal Surgery

1. Take it easy: Major surgery requires rest for recovery. Just because your cleared to workout doesn’t mean you should jump back into the expectations of doing things the way you could before your surgery… Slow and Steady!

2. If it hurts STOP: Pushing past my comfort zone could have me out of the gym for a longer period of time. If something didn’t feel right or weights were to heavy, I switched to lighter ones until my body is ready to handle more.

3. Stay Positive: Picking up an eight pound weight when back in February I had gotten up to using 40, is ego crushing. However at the end of the day.. it gives me another goal to push towards!

One hour a day, dedicated to just myself. I don’t take my phone in the gym, and if I do it’s in a locker. This and meal prep are business meetings I’ve set up with the health Boss inside of me and will NOT be missed.

The support from other gym members I got during my return was Amazing!

“I had no idea that was you”

“You are fading away to nothing, you look amazing.”

“You look more comfortable!”

“How do you feel?”

I love my gym family, from the support at the front desk staff to the all the gym members who help me BURN even on days I don’t want to. The ones to you left and right cheering you on, and even occasionally will say “I’m dying how about you!?”

I burn for a lot of practical things, to be fit, to feel healthy, to lose weight, change my body, look good naked 🙂 etc…

But every warm smiling face, high-five, and words of encouragement all keep me coming back for more Orange!

People ask me where do I find my motivation, and I tell them all the same thing.

“Every day you have a choice. You either do it or you don’t! If you SHOW up every day and PUT FORTH Effort.. the CHANGE will come!”

Before I go!

A Shout Out to ALL My OTF Buddies! Near and Far! And I’m ALWAYS down to take a class with anyone who has never been before! 😘

Until next time

Jazi 💕

Running for the Finish Line

Another year… Another 6.2! 💪🏾💪🏾💪🏾

The streak continues!

My MAIN goal in 2018 is to run a half marathon. But we will start with baby steps!

My favorite and first ever race. The Ukrop’s Monument Avenue 10K.

2016.. 350 Pounds and walking the race in 2 hours and 3 Minutes…

2018… 192 Pounds… jogging/walking to the finish line in 1 hour and 30 minutes 5 weeks post #ExcessSkinRemoval

I set out to just finished and shaved 5 minutes off last years time!

I had no goal… just to FINISH.

When I walked into my Plastic Surgeons office, my first question to him was, “Will I be able to run in the Monument Avenue 10K in April if my surgery is in March?”

He said yes! And I believed in him and myself to do so.

I did a lot of walking post surgery. From baby-steps around my parents house, building up outside. Walking in moderation for 15 minutes every hour I was awake helped me feel normal and loosened up stiffness in my body.

Some days my thighs would swell others my lower abdomen; but drinking more water as I got more active and changing into tighter and thigh length compression garments helped. On race day I ran in my binder to help with my running posture.

The Monday of race week April 9th…

I was 4 Weeks post surgery I felt comfortable doing my first run on a treadmill. I pushed myself for one mile and it felt great

The following day.

I pushed but this time outside with no expectations. I was able to accomplish a 3.2 mile run without stopping. An accomplishment that made me excited about race day.

The Big Race Morning: April 14th, 2018

I had my girls right next to me on race day. The only plan was to walk to Monument Avenue, (about .2 miles)then once on the main course start your run.

I was able to run a full 5k before the heat outside kicked in. It was a rather warm day to run and seeing as though I never ran in warmer temperatures, it made for a harder run. I took my recovery into mind and walked between mile 3.1 and 5. After 5 I ran to the finish line. Overall, I ran about 4.2 miles and walked 2.

My CBS 6 family and Orangetheory Family were on the course cheering which gave me extra boost! And checking my phone to switch my music offered some running motivational text that pushed me closer to the finish line…

I’m excited to get back in the gym full time next month.. and start training for my half later this summer!

Before my run, this message was apart of my daily devotion…

No matter how tired I got, I never gave up. I kept moving forward.

This run confirms in my life… you can do anything you put your mind to.

Change your mindset and it will change your Life. 💕💕

Until Next time

Jazi 💕

The Ups, Downs, Good, Bad & Ugly of My Plastic Surgery Recovery

It’s Been 4 WEEKS!!!!

My God, is big…. So Strong, and Mighty.

My Gods Plans for me, Go beyond my wildest dreams.

There’s nothing My GOD can NOT do!

-The Planetshakers

That stanza has gotten me through the very dark days of plastic surgery recovery.

This type of surgery is not easy. The results are so rewarding, but thanks to emotions recovery seems like it will never happen…

I wrote this 5 days after surgery…

Day 5: March 12, 2018

🗣 Listen This is NOT easy!

Did I think it would be… No.

Did I expect this much pain… sadly No.

Days 1-5 post op, have me down! I don’t eat. I can’t feel my back. My arms are sore and if I could snatch these blood drains from my body I would.

I’m impatient.

I’m so active and I miss sitting up with out problems, staying awake during a tv show, walking upright sleeping on my tummy; all things I did last Tuesday’s that I can’t do today it’s really getting the best of me.

I can’t eat. 🙄 every time I eat I throw up.

Thanks to the power of Social Media, I reached out to a woman I’ve never met in my life who went through the same surgery weeks prior, asking her “DOES THIS GET BETTER!?”

Here’s apart of our exchange:

I thank you @laurette_vsg ! You helped me more then you will ever know! 💕

After that day, I decided to write little blurbs every day.

Here are the highlights some good, exiting and others what I’ll call small bumps in the recovery road.

Day 8: March 15, 2018

Did a switch flip!?  I felt really good today. Not much pain, I’m standing straight. Drains don’t bother me; I even took a shower by myself! My favorite cousin is here! He will be helping me get back to normal once I go back home and head to work.  I finally feel normal, did my hair and got dressed.

Day 9: March 16, 2018

6-hour drive back to Richmond from Charleston SC

YES! DRAINS REMOVED! Not so fast, I have two! But I started with 6!

I feel much better and more mobile!

Day 13: March 21, 2018

Sheesh! Work was a killer!

I’m glad to be back! I was getting bored being home.

Took my pillow for comfort and I need a nap I’m wore out! But being back in a newsroom gives me normalcy that helps with healing not only my body but my mind!

Day 14: March 22, 2018

It HURTS!

Tingling, Zips, Zaps, Burning Sensation… whoa! What’s happening!

My lower back has so much feeling!

A quick call to my PS: “You are healing. Your nerve endings are connecting this is perfectly normal.”

Day 17: March 24, 2018

I hosted a Baby Shower for a close friend and one of my biggest supporters!

Before I left, she asked me if I would be up to hosting, and of course I had already believed i would and it was an honor. With the help of our co-workers we were able to pull of a wonderful Celebration for baby Savannah Rose💕.

Jasmine has been here from the beginning! I’ve love doing life with her back in April 2016, she was one of the first friends I told I was having gastric sleeve. We took this picture at her Blessing Away before she headed to her destination wedding! We took this second picture at the baby shower, she was also one of the first people I told I was getting Plastic Surgery!

I love you Jas, and I thank- God we were put in the CBS 6 Newsrooom at the same time. I can’t wait to meet baby Savannah!! She is so blessed to have you and Julian! 💕💕

Day 18: March 25, 2018

I pulled a drain per my surgeon’s orders. It wasn’t draining over 25 CCs in 24 Hours.

I also slept this entire day until work. I was wiped out! I can tell my body is swollen because of the extra walking and standing. Kept my compression extra tight.

Day 22: March 29, 2018

Was invited to the Virginia Communications Hall of Fame!

Wait! I still have a drain, but this will not stop me!

Had a great time with my work family met some inductees and had good food and drinks! Life is feeling normal!

Day 23: March 30, 2018

PS must remove some stitches.

No, he will not take this drain it’s still draining. He then says the very scary words oh so very casually, “Let me drain this seroma.”

Seroma: A pocket of clear serious fluid that sometimes develops in the body after surgery.

I thought it was a death wish but I hadn’t even known the seroma existed. Only thing that hurt was the needle! He drained what seemed like a gallon (it was 80ML) of fluid from my right hip. The needle was the only thing that hurt. I will have to have this seroma drained every week and keep on a tighter compression.

I’m very social and friends are calling. After licking my wounds, I knew I had to go out.

A close friend of mine who has been by my side since I moved to Richmond is moving so a night on the town is much needed.

I’ll miss you Quiona! You are going to kill it at the University of Maryland!

After a few hours of drinking and dancing (in heels I might add) my body said it was time to go home. Good Friday was a Good Friday!

Day 25: April 1, 2018

Happy Easter! I’m so blessed to be back at The Life Church RVA. My church family has made a big impact on my journey. The support from our life groups leaders, Heart & Soul workout group, the communications team and from my friends who have become family; truly show how God has blessed me. From my very first decision to have gastric surgery to my plastic surgery I prayed and asked God for guidance. He guided me to this church that took place in Binford Middle School in January of 2016 and has carried me all the way to 5515 Bryce Lane where my growth in him continues. I love my church and the foundation I have built with the people who are there with me!

Day 26: April 2, 2018

My first lymphatic drainage massage.

This felt amazing. I heard they help with swelling and at this point some relaxation is needed. The massage is very light pressing movements of the lymph nodes. For 60 minutes Jordan from Indigo RVA pressed and moved along my arms legs back neck and face. It was soothing and allowed my body to stretch. I booked a massage for one day a week for the entire month of April.

Day 28: April 4, 2018

Exactly 4 Weeks Post Plastic Surgery!

I can start training for the Ukrop’s Monument Avenue 10K.

Anyone who knows me knows this race has been a milestone every year I’ve been here in Richmond!!

My PS: Extra compression and be sure to take it easy!

I’m so excited to slowly be active again! Waking up every day with less pain.

I will be documenting on my Instagram @jazifresh3 my mini training and how getting back active is going!

Now I just have until May 8th and I can join my Orangetheory Fitness Family again!

The last 4 weeks have been taxing, yet SO rewarding! It’s just amazes me what you can do in two years’ time. Change your mindset and you can change your life. It’s the truth.

Luke 17:5-6

“The apostles said to the Lord, “Show us how to increase our faith.” The Lord answered, “If you had faith even as small as a mustard seed, you could say to this mulberry tree, ‘May you be uprooted and be planted in the sea,’ and it would obey you!”

I have completely changed my lifestyle and I’m so honored to be able to share my journey with all of you!

Until next time.

-Jazi 💕

March 1995

March 1995.

A 6-year-old Jazmin woke up out of anesthesia with with one thing on my mind… “Am I skinny?..”

That’s a wild thought process for a child. You see I’ve been “losing weight” my whole life. I come from and am proud to be apart a family full of LARGE & in CHARGE LOUD JOYOUS group of human beings who LOVE to eat.

Yes, I was overweight but so was my family. My hero my daddy is a big guy who played basketball and I wanted to be “just like my daddy!”

Now … my Ma’s part of the family is petite, but RULE & COMMAND a room without having to open their mouths, and some of my aunts are Beautifully VOLUPTUOUS…

I paint this picture of my family to say…

Weight was never an issue just something that people saw. I NEVER had an issue with being big, I dressed my larger frame as I’ll dress my smaller one.

My family and friends loved me then and ALWAYS told me how beautiful I was inside and out.

But for 28 years.. I tried and failed and tried and failed to lose weight… I knew something had to change. I was not taking care of the only temple God Gave Me. So one night I prayed… I said, “God what do I have to do?”

Through the power of social media… the hashtag VSG came across my explore page. Not knowing what it was at the time. I clicked and realized this is what I had to do.

I never turned back…

So In March 2016, I called my support system. The two people who with no questions asked will ride to the end of the world and back.

My mom flew to Richmond where we met my Bariatric surgeon.

I was cleared for Surgery and I never looked back…

In August 2016… I got my sleeve… and I’ve been fighting for a healthy body ever since.

Now here is where life will truly make you laugh.

23 years later.. March 2018….

A 6-year old Jazmin woke up to the reality of “waking up skinny”.

Well of course now that I’m 29. It’s not waking up skinny. It’s waking up HEALTHY. My lifestyle continues…

With the body God ALWAYS told me I was suppose to have…

and for that God I thank-you.

Sneak Peak…

Until next time.

-Jazi 💕

The Time is Now

Not a fresh start, but more of a new beginning.

Transitioning from one chapter in my journey to the next…

Well here we are.

On March, 7, 2018 … 1 year and 7 months after going under the knife for my vertical gastric sleeve surgery…  I’ll be doing it again.

Only, this time I will go in one way and come out another.

Mind blowing right.!?

This is happening.

I’ve never second guessed the decision, I prayed researched and prayed some more. I’ve read this scripture more times then I can count… but it has given me peace…

Philippians 4:6-7 Don’t worry about anything; instead pray about everything. Tell God what you need and thank him for all he has done. Then you will experience God’s peace which exceeds anything we can understand. His peace will guard your hearts and mind as you live in Christ Jesus.

I asked my parents, close friends, church family, gym family, and work family for their support- and it has been incredible.

I scrolled through social media and even joined tummy tuck support groups. The women in our March group are amazing.

I hope someone realizes my journey on this healthy lifestyle continues… and someone can look at me and say, “If she did it so can I”.

This part of the journey I decided needed to be shared, a part more important than ‘losing’ the weight.

The deeper and more vulnerable part; after the weight is gone—the real ongoing battle to love and accept the body that you were blessed *not left with.

Yes. I was left was with the sagging skin… but the experience I had to get here has been amazing.

Learning how to fuel my body for work outs, weeks of meal prep, running faster and longer, lifting heavier weights, that ‘healthy’ feeling is all worth the extra skin that will no longer hold me captive in the body that I worked hard for.

Until next time.

-Jazi 💕

Year One: A lot can CHANGE in a year

“Our lives improve only when we take chances and the first and most difficult risk we can take is to be honest with ourselves”. – Walter Anderson

Quotes come across our timelines all the time, but this one resonated with me.

It’s been one year!

One year ago today, it wasn’t the decision, it was the actual day. No stopping, no excuses. I got honest with myself and was prepared for the CHANGE.

On this day in 2016, I committed to letting a doctor cut me open and take out 80% of my stomach. The decision to have Vertical Gastric Sleeve surgery was one I made on my own. I saw others go through it, but always thought what if people think I took the “easy way out”, or “cheated”.

I then asked myself, “Who’s life is this anyway?” That’s right Jazi’s IT’S MINE. I never allowed the opinion of others to stop me before, so why now. Allowing judgment from others to regulate your life will have you moving in to seasons that are not yours to move into. This life is the only one you get and, the decisions you make whether you succeed, grow and learn or fail and still grow and learn; the end result you grown and learn.

Trial and error.

The first 12 months were filled with trying things and seeing if they worked for me. New foods, drinking copious amounts of water and zero calories anything, new work outs like running and adding more weights. The one thing I held onto was focusing on how I felt. Anytime you put your effort into something you want to be rewarded. Stepping on the scale and seeing a number did not give me that satisfaction. Waking up feeling refreshed and wanting to go for a run did more for me then that number.

If you’re thinking about making a change, (in any part of your life) expect something other than the physical. Focus on how you feel day to day. I don’t own a scale nor do I ask to step on one at the gym.

I grew to trust myself more after accepting I will not let that number rule me.

The first 12 months were filled with SUPPORT! If I could physically in person thank every single one of you who gave me words of encourgment or clicked “like” I would! I can’t but here it is!

THANK-YOU! When people are “watching me”, I feel accountable. I keep myself motivated on knowing that someone’s life may be changed for the better for what I post. Influence moves minds and bodies. My aim is to be a positive influence. The support that came from all of YOU gave me the courage needed to give this a try.

Now ask yourself, “What can you do in a year?”

In the weeks to come, I plan on slowly giving you the month by month updates journaled in the first year of my changes.  I will go through what I learned month to month, and give you my thoughts and of course update with pictures. Alongside that, I’ll be giving you more to look forward to in year two! Cause BABY! That now begins now!…

But for now… August ’16 – August ‘17

Happy One Year “Surgiversary” to Me.

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Until next time.

-Jazi 💕

Reflecting: On Faith

As I approach one year of taking the many steps to change my life, a moment of reflection came over me. 

One year ago today, was the Sunday before my #VSG surgery. I’m a member of The Life Church RVA with services at the time being held at Binford Middle School. This particular Sunday I was nervous beyond measure. For many years I asked God to give me the courage to make healthier lifestyle changes but I didn’t trust him; my faith was not all in with the only person who has never let me down.


As my pastor began to pray over the congregation, he said something that stopped me in my tracks. “Anyone who is going through something health wise this week whatever the doctor says everything is going to be okay.” I knew that was God speaking to me through him.

One year later. 

Today we had the first church service in OUR own church building. (A blessing in itself with a church that is only two years old.) Once again God spoke to me through my pastor when he said, “Let your Testimony be a referral”.

Well here it is: Through faith in God, hard work and consistency; I have grown in ways I could never imagine possible without God. Not just physically but spiritually and mentally which are if not more just as important. As all humans there are days when you want to stray from the mundane routine but that is not how you become successful. With God on my side, days that I didn’t want to “stick to the plan” I did. Days I did not want to plan, but I did. There were then days, weeks and even at one time a full month of being hard on myself and letting all of that go out the window. Until God pulled me back in, and showed me to trust the process. Trust HIS timing.  Keep Faith.

We all struggle, but with Faith you can change anything.! 

“You have to stay in the presence of God long enough and you will find out this is something you can not take credit for.” -Pastor Vernon

I can’t take full responsibility for this journey. God’s hands were all over it. IT WAS A MIRACLE. Being apart of a church that I know God placed me in was the impact that steered my change. Through him ALL things are possible. 

He made a miracle happen in my life. Now it’s time to move “From a miracle mentality to a maintenance mentality.” -Pastor Gordon

Everyday I continue to fight to keep my faith, and in this new season, my maintenance will kick in. Nothing is easy, but for me the beginning of this journey was filled with the optimism to explore the unknown. There was no doubt in my mind that I wouldn’t go far, but now the real journey of maintenance begins.

The lifestyle that I have now committed to, the journey of growing closer to and with God, that season is slowing morphing into a season of maintenance. Sometimes your season of growth cools off and gives you a chance to reflect and live right where you are in this very moment.

I enjoyed living in this season, now its time for a shift into a new one. One that I will document; the good, bad and the ugly. One that I look to lean on God in as my patients is tested. One that will help others along the way as they deal with any season of their lives.

I say this to encourage you to come along with me; and no matter what never stop having faith.

Happy Sunday! 

Until next time.

-Jazi 💕